Earlier this year I filmed “Clown Fetish” with Steve on “Gigalos”.

While I was putting on Steve’s make-up, I saw Health Ledger’s face before me, as in “Batman”, made up as The Joker. It was disturbingly sexy to be attracted to that image. Naughty, not right, taboo, yet he was so handsome and Steve had that same GQ face, which brought it together for me. Having hot sex with a body that was steamy hot, not a person, not about connecting with a spirit, just hot sex based on physical attraction. And the face isn’t part of it, it isn’t about being with that person.

Making a clown a sexual object is playing with a taboo. A clown is supposed to be a funny entertainer. A fetishist sees a clown as a sexual desired object.

There is a paradox that happens in this fetish because when a clown face is drawn on you, you must find that part of you that lives not dependent on your image. When you are pretty, how do you be you without being pretty? What else do you have in the card deck? You must face the question, Is it more important to be pretty or to have fun and play?

I have not actually seen the episode. I was there though. I saw what actually happened, felt it, lived it.

August 31st Showtime TV aired its premier episode for its new third season. I am in that episode. I am on the opening credits for the entire season placing a red clown nose on Steve.

Since I was at BurningMan during the premier, I am only now getting feedback on my work. Why yes, I do hope you find me sexy. That is what I am selling. (:

even when doing a clown.

Burning Man was Mad-Max meets Dune meets The Smokers of WaterWorld and exploring each camp is like dropping into a REAL second life.

Being self-reliant is crucial in the Playa.

The PREPARE PART:

I rented an RV. I used Cruise America.

A rest stop.

I bought a bike at a yard sale. I bought a headlamp and lighted tail lamp for it. If you want to go farther out and around on the playa and faster then walking, unless you have an Art car, you bike.

Clothes:

Dessert Boots: Danner Desert TFX Rough Out HOT 8″

http://www.shoebuy.com/danner-desert-tfx-rough-out-hot-8/227665/489284

You may also want a very comfy, alternative shoe to wear. I will be looking for an inexpensive shoe that meets this need this year.

2.5 x the days you will be there pairs socks- YOU need lots of fresh socks

(these were perfect with my Dessert Boots)

http://www.zappos.com/jefferies-socks-sport-crew-half-cushion-seamless-6-pair-pack-infant-toddler-youth-adult-white-grey

For the hot burning sun:

gloves, long sleeve cotton shirts with uv protection, hat, face mask, scarves

daytime gloves http://www.coolibar.com/07002.html
http://www.sunprecautions.com/product/31000

daytime scarves: http://www.coolibar.com/07017w.html
http://www.coolibar.com/07015w.html

sun hat: http://www.coolibar.com/product/Sun-Hats/Floppy/Sedona-Hat/pc/2222/sc/2196/155428.uts

here is another sun hat link: http://www.sungrubbies.com/product_index_html/Sunhats3sunprotectionhats.htm

Long sleeve top: http://www.coolibar.com/product/Women/Tops-Tees-Polos/T-Shirts-Knit-Tops/ZnO-Long-sleeve-T-Shirt/pc/2240/c/2241/sc/2242/155345.uts

face mask: http://www.sunprecautions.com/product/32800

For the cold nights:

thermal top (I have some from Eddie Bauer that I wear on cold days)

cold weather pants

winter jacket (really)

I have in my closet and drawers cold weather clothes I used. They are also suitable for hiking/camping.

Crossing Donner Pass

About to loose signal with the world and going off grid.

At BurningMan:

I was up at 5 am making coffee, and turning into a Pony.

I was an Appaloosa Pony. I wore my brown catsuit that I had painted. I had made a bridle out of heavy ribbed red ribbon. I used an old pair of leather reins. My tail was made from heavy brown yarn. I wore my socks and Dessert Boots.

I loved being a Pony. I loved delivering mail and investigating the streets of Burningman in the morning. I was ready to roll out between 6:30 am and 7 am. I stop for bacon as a Pony. I smell it, seek it, love it when I am a Pony.

When the mail was done, I cleaned up. I wiped the RV down of the days dust. I Put on my sun stuff and went to explore the art projects. Loved the wharf and sunken’ Pirate ship. Loved the Temple. Loved the small burn Art and burning Man. Loved MadMax Dome.

The Burning Man night is a big fire dance party. Very uplifting.

The burning of the Temple is very spiritual.

It was very balancing for me to be a Pony day after day after so many months of training Ponies.

I truly felt privileged to know the people of Pony Express Camp. It was special being there.

Yes, I was covered up, protected from the elements most of the time. Moisture chap stick is your friend on the playa. I returned from BurningMan with my hair in good condition, no sunburn, no windburn nor any dry skin. I was able to do a photo shoot nude 2 days after my return to Los Angeles.

I want to go back. I want to build on this experience.

Early in the morning, leaving on Monday, coming back on grid

Up at the crack of dawn loading the car, making sure everything was delivered by whom was supposed to be delivering it,making sure everyone had their ride, picking up the food and getting to the event by 8 am to set up. It is my version of being Santa on Christmas Day, I think. It is that much pressure and that good. Producing an event is a whole lot of details and details regarding the details. You can’t produce an excellent event alone, you need good people under you, intelligent, competent people. The LA Pony and Critter Club is all that and more. The doors open at 9:30 am and we begin.

What an incredible dance. This is a day to live for. I loved every moment. Wish you could have shared it with me.

While I’m in Nashville, I like to take some time out to walk around Centennial Park. There is a lake, serene views, and a wonderful path that circles the park. In the middle of this park is The Parthenon.

The Parthenon in Nashville, Tennessee is a full-scale replica of the original Parthenon in Athens. It was built in 1897 as part of the Tennessee Centennial Exposition. Address: 2600 West End Avenue, Nashville, TN 37203

I brought my friend Lady Robin with me and we had a fine day being tourists. (:

I love my life.

There is a ponygirl I train that lives in Indianapolis. Her Pony name is Ginger. I started training her at the Great Lakes Leather Alliance in 2011. When I travel to this fine city, it is to do work and mostly to train my ponygirl.

Ginger doesn’t get to practice on reins much. She really needs a local play partner. I’d be sad to loose her, but I want her to be happy and well trained. She was so nervous the first practice session and much better the next practice. I took out my dressage practice book and we went through the routines. I’m loving that book. We created it for the LA Pony and Critter Jamboree to be held August 25th, 2012. It is a fine book to exercise one’s pony with any day.

I was trying to explain and get across the idea of a relaxed walk gait that had momentum, smoothness, energy and yet, was a walk. On our way back to my hotel, we saw this wonderful Cinderella cart being pulled by a Clydesdale. I insisted on us taking a ride.

It was so fun. The Clydesdale was a terrific horse named Clyde. He is a rescue. He has a lovely relaxed walk, yet it has momentum, the cart is pulled smoothly. Ginger understood what I was trying to explain. Huzzah!

Bravo to Clyde’s owners and the company he works for also. Not only do they rescue horses, Clyde is well cared for now. When it is hot in Indianapolis, he doesn’t go to work until 7 PM. If it is cold, he doesn’t work. When Clyde works, he is very focused, an excellent cart horse that knows his route.

Another excellent weekend.
I love my life.

I love Chicago. One of my favorite hotels is the Millennium Knickerbocker Hotel and I had the pleasure of returning here this week. They have a fabulous bar menu when I need to grab a bite to eat. My favorite dish is the Salmon Caesar Salad for a mere $12. Their hotel lobby is seriously grand. It was a fabulous week staying there.

In Play, a defining moment this week was understanding that sometimes clients don’t want an authentic reaction from me to discipline training. If they hit me with a crop, cane, leather ruler tawse or leather ruler strap they may want the reaction the girl on the video they saw gave: of quivering, of pleading the Disciplinarian to stop, of being in a panic that she might get struck again.

I have a lovely gentleman client that views these Russian girls being disciplined. It is hot. They do quiver and protest. Great stuff on this website.

For me, I love the sound and feel of most discipline tools, even in heavy sessions, I just love it.

So, I am in the middle of my time with this man, when he says in dismay, “The problem is you enjoy all of this. I could do this all day and you would just be a happy camper.” I got on my knees and asked if he would be so kind as to explain. He showed me the videos he likes to watch, the ones that make him excited. I got what he wanted from me. We proceeded and he was extremely satisfied with his session.

Therefore, if you want quivering, panicked and protest, please direct me to act properly for you. I am here to serve you.

Always a pleasure.

I love my life.

It is an overcast day in Chicago and *really*, I need to get ready for an appointment this morning.

July just flew by me.

I was home in Los Angeles. My morning in Los Angeles are taken with training these awesome new ponygirls and ponyboy that are members of the LA Pony and Critter Club. We have a Jamboree coming up in August, and they will be participating in it. Routines are being learned, different disciplines of Pony play are being explored. It is great fun and terrific exercise in a beautiful park in LA. How cool beans is that?

I had a fabulous week in Dallas. Dallas rocks. I discovered the Fish Market on Main Street, the Lobster Bisque is to die for.

I attended Thunder in Mountains. Memorable. Always special to meet up with the people I go to see there. Nothing like I expected and most definitely surpassed my expectations. Thunder is always a great event to participate in.

I visited Minneapolis for the first time. I will have to return. I had an awesome welcome of business and many letters asking for my return. I shall, Minneapolis, thank YOU.

I returned to the Drake Hotel in Toronto, Canada. This is a remarkable, unique hotel in the Art-Theater district. And here is a capture of their cement Teddy Bear collection:

I must prepare for work. I am having a fabulous time in Chicago. Thank you, Chicago.

I seem to drop off the social network when I visit Manhattan. That is because I am busy working, which is a good thing. 😉

The outstanding new role play scenario this week was

I am walking in to audition for a BDSM web site. It is a very popular site and they have many submissive’s who want to be on it. They have audition scenes to pick out the best players. My client was the person auditioning me.

The scene still allows the client to be outside of themselves, yet we get to get down to our kink play and toss it up with a lot of variety and stay in scene.

Sweet.

They other aspect I like about Manhattan is that the clients I see want to explore, always have a couple items on there list they have never done before. I am honored and pleased to pop those cherries. 😉

I love my job!

I love my life!

I took a bit of time this morning to shop. I picked up my Silk Soy vanilla Light, Almond Milk Vanilla unsweetened and then I’m passing the rice cakes.

Have you compared Quaker rice cakes to other rice cakes? or to say, Vegetable Chips? Multi Grain Chips? Whoa.

Serving Size 8 mini cakes (16g)

Amount Per Serving
Calories from Fat 0
Calories 60

% Daily Values*
Total Fat 0g 0%
Saturated Fat 0g 0%
Polyunsaturated Fat 0g
Monounsaturated Fat 0g
Trans Fat 0g
Cholesterol 0mg 0%
Sodium 50mg 2%
Potassium 0mg
Total Carbohydrate 13g 4%
Dietary Fiber 0g 0%
Sugars 4g
Protein 1g

Terra Vegetable chips

One serving = 1 ounce about 16 chips

Calories 150 Sodium 50 mg
Total Fat 9 g Potassium 0 mg
Saturated 1 g Total Carbs 16 g
Polyunsaturated 0 g Dietary Fiber 3 g
Monounsaturated 0 g Sugars 3 g
Trans 0 g Protein 1 g
Cholesterol 0 mg
Vitamin A 8% Calcium 2%
Vitamin C 8% Iron 2%

Food should Taste Good Multi Grain Chip

Serving Size 1 ounce = 10 chips

Calories 130.0
Total Fat 6.0 g
Saturated Fat 0.0 g
Polyunsaturated Fat 0.0 g
Monounsaturated Fat 0.0 g
Cholesterol 0.0 mg
Sodium 80.0 mg
Potassium 0.0 mg
Total Carbohydrate 18.0 g
Dietary Fiber 3.0 g
Sugars 2.0 g
Protein 3.0 g

Knowledge is Power. Your choices are Calories, Salt, Fat, Sugar, Protein. As long as you eat only ONE serving, each of these is offering something of value.

This tour started with a bang and I am very grateful.

Monday, June 11, I checked into The Churchill. It is a historical hotel that sits opposite the famous Hilton in DuPont Circle that President Reagan was shot at. I was given an end room, very large and fitted for a handicapped person, which means the bathroom is incredible. Handicapped designed bathrooms have an extra large shower with a wall shower head, a hand held shower head, and a bench seat chair. This is a wonderful set-up for Water sports. Just sayin’.

The most delightful find I made was that afternoon. I googled for a health store to find there was one only four blocks away. Yes, Organic Market 1825 Columbia Road NW. It is small, yet stuffed to the brim. I was able to fill my shipping bag with goodies for breakfast and lunch, making eating between work easy and healthy. Go me.

Thursday, I moved over to The Dupont Circle Hotel. It was a 180 degree turn to very updated, very modern decor. This hotel is filled with the bustle of young people and men in suits. The bar is always full. It is a delightful place right on the Circle.

Saturday, I was off to Baltimore. My reservation was at the Hilton by the Convention Center. Saturday had a lot of street traffic to the Inner Harbor. I got a breast piece at Royal Market. Now that was excellent chicken. Totally recommend. A real treat was a brass jazz band playing on the corner. I copped myself a squat, ate my chicken, enjoyed the cool breeze and shade under a tree and listened to the music. I put a few dollars in the open drum bag when my lunch was done. I also picked up soy milk at the CVS Store to compliment the LaVazza coffee in my hotel room. yum, yum, yum.

A great start to my three week tour up the NorthEast Passage. (: